Dazed and Confused!

Dazed and Confused
Life seems so far away
My pain is inside
You cant see it
Im on my own
Noone near
Your all so good
You never know
That im not you

I lost myself when I lost you
Losing myself to things untrue
You came to find me but I did not reach out
Im sorry I caused you pain

He hurt me badly
I cried all day
My emotional rollercoaster is here

What do I do?
I hurt you
I hurt me
It is all I know

My fists clasp tight
My pain is deep
How to show you
Is to hurt me
Which hurts you

You smile everyday
You laugh at jokes
You go out and meet new people
You see the world
You see the light

Im in the dark
I cant find the switch
I need the pill
It makes me smile
While Im here

Why should it be that I cant smile?
I know that you care
I cant believe it
Im sorry
I caused you pain
I hope you can forgive me
For I cant forgive myself