Natalie!

Prayer...Just for you hunny...to let you know I care....

Please READ IT!

Dear Lord, I pray that you will shine down on Natalie, that you will keep her safe and that you will guide her through the road she is on and show her that she has purpose on this earth and her plan is there...I pray that she can trust in you lord to take her pain away and that she looks to you for support and guidence, that she finds strength in your light...I pray God that you will keep her safe and away from satan, that you will allow her to follow you and not the twisted road that satan wants to take her, I pray that Jesus you will be walking with her where ever she goes and that you will keep her safe, Holy spirit please warm her heart and show her from the inside that life is for living and that there alot of things that she has yet done, that will bring her joy and peace...

God I pray that you can lift her spirit and that Natalie will not feel the need to commit suicide and that she can bring herself to talk to someone outside of the internet, Lord I know that this may be hard for her but i believe that you can bring peace and the love she needs to her that will make her understand that she needs to get help and that we are all there for her while she is suffering but please give her strength to speak to someone, to get the help that she needs to make the road to recovery.
Lord I also pray that you can provide strength to Natalie as she battles with her self harm and that you can show her that it is not what she needs to do...Lord I pray that Natalie finds peace and the support she needs...I pray that she can find the ability in her to talk to college and not to worry about her parents...Lord I know you wish to have everyone under your guide and I pray that Natalie will not follow satan and choose to get help.

Thank you lord
Amen

Smiles All round Please !!!!!!

Eating or not eating???

Going to France

Well the time has come for me to give a weeks warning...As this time next week I will be in france sleeping in a tent, freezing my but off...and away from my family...and in need of some serious rest...however im not going there for a holiday, I am going to go there to work for the next 7 months and it is a long time I know but i hope to get to my emails alot and to maybe keep up to date here too.....






Ok well if you can read this map....I am sending the first three months in Paris and then the next four months in Nante...........

This next picture is of a girl doing kids club in our sexy uniform....





This is my tent...massive....it is slightly different for me as we get three bedrooms not two....cause we dont need the living space as we get a whole empty tent for that.

It should be seven months of fun and I cant wait but at the same time I still worry about my health....

Keep in touch email me....leave posts I will try and get in touch with you all....

Love Me xx

Hold my hand!

someone is always there for you

Look out!

Who Am I? How Am I?

This picture above is a picture of me mixed with an angel, and someone who is hurt...
I suffer and have suffered for too long from depression....docotrs dont give you enough time to open up...10minutes is not long enough...I cant tell them everything in that ammount of time

Spike Milligan knows what he is talking about in that quote...depressed peole are exactly as he describes...or for me it is...may not for you I dont know.....

I always feel that noone care when I feel depressed but I know if I come online then I will find a friend...There are so many people in the world that suffer from depression and if you suffer from it then you are not alone...never feel like you are not wanted cause you are...I know that it can be hard to see that when you are so low...I know that because I have been there...I dont like it but it is something that we all feel....I never feel loved or cared for but i know that there are people who do...ask for help and you will find a world that you never knew...

The smile behind the depression.....the angels are there...they are with you where ever you walk so you know that your not alone....even through the dark times you are being watched and you are being helpped...it will feel like you dont see that and I again can say i know that....I turn from everything rather than turning to it....

Take care in what ever you do....please look for help....join a yahoo forum for advice from others who are going through the same thing as you are....they will help you and give you support and advice...I know....Ive found that out...i know there are people who care...I know that even though I dont see it very often...

Call a hotline for help

Call a friend for a chat

Listen to music

Write a journal

Do some drawings

Do something that will put a smile on your face and lift your spirits.

Take Care and Keep Safe Always

xx

Hug!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

Why wont they hug me??????

I Just have depression!

God cares

SEE ME!!

Just a little note!

This should probably be taped to your bathroom mirror where one could read it every day. You may not realize it, but it's 100% true.

1. There are at least two people in this world that you would die for.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.

3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.

4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.

5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.

6. You mean the world to someone.

7. You are special and unique.

8. Someone that you don't even know exists, loves you.

9. When you make the biggest mistake ever,something good comes from it.

10. When you think the world has turned its back on you take another look.

11. Always remember the compliments you received.Forget about the rude remarks.

So............If you are a loving friend, send this to everyone.
And always remember....when life hands you Lemons, ask for tequila and salt and call me over!!